20 January, 2008

2008

I haven't posted for awhile. I haven't really had the time. The end of 2007 was a particularly trying time for me. I lost one of the men closest to me in the world. That man will be featured in a blog entry sometime soon. That loss, combined with a misunderstanding with a friend, lead to my re-evaluating my life, particularly my life in Boston.

Boston didn't come out looking particularly good from that eval. The early soul-searching was dark, and it proved to be a lonely time. I knew that something waited on the other side of my analysis. As 2007 wound down, I made some new, real friends. The turning to 2008 truly felt momentous.

It has proven so thus far. I'd let Boston affect me too much. I'd compromised myself. I can't let that happen anymore. All of the things that I've feared will not dictate my future. It's time that Bobby G came back.

What does that mean, practically? Well, for one thing, I've had an incredibly momentous January. Incredibly momentous? What does that mean? Can't you write clearly? LOL.

Life isn't always clear. We do not see it all. Right now, I'm more scared about the future than I've ever been. The path that I was on last year is no longer good enough for me. I can do more. I will do more.

I challenge you, I ask you, I plead with you to help me. Do more. Feel more. Be more, than you have been. The world awaits, for us to repair it.

G-d bless you.

1 comment:

amavia said...

This entry speaks of those times of our lives where we discover who we really are. I had my big epiphany in 2006, when I realized I had lived most of my life for others and for what was expected of me, rather than what I wanted to do.

I hope that you have gotten back on track with yourself, whatever that may be.